Wants

I have you alone.
It is the one thing that I have both dreamt of and feared
From the day I first met you.
If I had things my way,
The room would be lit with scented candles
And rose petals would caress the bed.
I would have made this moment perfect for you.
But you couldn’t wait.
You wanted this here and now.
You say that it will be perfect as long as it is with me,
And it is all I can do to hold back my tears.
With everyone else I am the steady rock,
Cold and immovable,
But with you I feel things I never thought possible.
I don’t know if I am worthy of the trust I see in your eyes
But I will do my best not to betray it.
Anything less would be an insult to my love for you.
I can see your anxieties written all over your face
And I know that you need me to take the lead.
It is not a role that I am always comfortable with,
But if you ask it of me, it shall be yours.
I know you are not completely convinced that I can be gentle with you.
I have never wanted to be anything but gentle with you.
With you I am not capable of anything else.
I am not like the others.
I never have been and I never will be.
I don’t want to have sex with you…
Anyone can do that, should you choose to let them.
I don’t want to make love to you…
It is a phrase thrown around too often by people who don’t know what love is.
I want you to know what I see when I look at you.
I want to convince you that you are beautiful.
I want you to have not even the slightest shadow of a doubt
That I am in love with every single part of you.
I want you to know that I have staked my claim
And I am no longer able to let you go.
I want you to recognize that there will be no other for me
Once I have pledged my heart to you.
And I will state my promise again and again
With a kiss and a touch.