Are you single? And, if so, what’s your number? Er…I don’t think that’s on the questionnaire, I’m not good with relationships, and I don’t generally give out my number. Sorry.
Right, moving on. I don’t know if you believe in astrology or not but, what’s your sign? Capricorn. Apparently that’s supposed to mean I’m creative and moody. I’m also a fire snake according to Chinese astrology, an INFJ personality type, and I possibly have some sort of social anxiety disorder.
Interesting. I might come back to that. What do you do for a living? Right now I’m working for the government. No, there’s nothing hush-hush or exciting about it. Just mountains of paperwork. I’ve had a couple of jobs over the years, but my real aim is having my own business. Any spare time I have is spent focusing my energy on my writing and my part time freelancing business.
This might be a tough question but, why do you write? That’s not difficult at all. I write to keep my sanity. It really is as simple as that. The fact is, I’m not a very emotional person. Or rather, certain circumstances in my life have left me unable to deal with strong emotions on a personal level. Writing is my outlet. It helps keep me away from more destructive behaviors.
About that. You’ve never shied away from the fact that you used to indulge in self-mutilation? Why shy away from it? I had a very difficult childhood, from an emotional point of view, and that’s something I never learnt how to process properly. Since I wasn’t capable of dealing with emotional pain, I channeled it into physical pain instead via cutting. I’m not ashamed of that. I learnt how to deal with it, I keep myself busy, and it’s been years since I’ve allowed myself into that place. If my talking about it can help someone else get over the stigma then why not?
I understand. So, how long have you been writing? I started writing poetry around 14 or 15. I dabbled with short stories for a while but didn’t get into writing them seriously until I was in my early twenties.
Which do you prefer? The stories or the poetry? Hmm. You know, they’re almost worlds apart. The short stories I write are a chance to transform into someone else, whether it’s the average person getting lucky in love or a mythical creature. To do it well, I have to put myself into their shoes. The poetry is more…well…me. It’s an outpouring of whatever emotion I’m feeling at that moment.
I have to ask this. Where do you get your inspiration? From my life, mostly. Obviously my works are fiction though. I’d hate to have people thinking I’m running around with delusions of being a vampire. I often have to rely on a vivid imagination, but there’s still a tiny grain of reality in there. For example, Feeding Time came about as a result of my frustration with people, and I use the term loosely, who victimize others. Wouldn’t it be fun if these monsters ran into something much worse than themselves? I will admit that there’s a little bit of me in most of my main characters. How much depends on the story-line.
Even in the steamy ones? Steamy ones? I wouldn’t say that I’ve ever written anything overly explicit and…why are you looking at me like that? I’m a tad bit shy when it comes to some things and I have to say that I’ve always believed a little mystery is much more alluring. Even when I go further, I still stay within my own boundaries, although I am beginning to challenge those a little. I’ve even submitted a few erotica pieces here and there, with varying success.
Erotica? I may faint…oh, I didn’t say anything. Um, are there any writers who have inspired you? Definitely. While I will admit to not being a fan of her more recent works, I love Patricia Cornwell’s first few books in her Kay Scarpetta series. I admire Caleb Carr’s writing style, and I have to say that Radclyffe has been a huge influence. Anyone who can make a scene come alive in front of me has my utmost admiration. In fact, her website was my introduction to lesbian fiction, and I still say that Love’s Melody Lost is a masterpiece.
I love that one too. You wouldn’t happen to be working on anything right now, would you? I’m always working on something. I have a bunch of story ideas, some for this site and some for various calls for submission. I’ve been dabbling with getting some of my work published and I’ve had a tiny bit of success, so I’m going to keep at it. And I’ve had this idea for a full length novel running around in my head for a while. I should really get started on it.
Do you have anything going on other than writing? Most definitely. I’m a huge horror fan and I’m working on my own paranormal website at the moment. That’s www.eeriewhispers.com by the way. I also have a bunch of other domains that I’m slowly but surely developing.
Alright, we’re almost done (damn it). Last Question. If you had to choose, what would you say are the words you live by? Be true to yourself. Sometimes that’s hard to do but always listen to the little voice in the back of your head that says “This is who I am. I am happy with myself and that’s something worth fighting for”.