So you’ve been wondering about me? I can’t imagine why. I don’t think I’m all that interesting. I’m just the average person you’d see walking down the street on any given day. But who am I to disappoint you? If you want to know, I’ll let you know…up to a point. Like you, my privacy is sacred.
Are you single? And, if so, what’s your number? Is that actually on the questionnaire? It is. Well okay. Yes, I am currently single and no, I’m not looking to be not single any time in the near future. *Mutters to self* who booked this interview?
Right, moving on. I don’t know if you believe in astrology or not but, what’s your sign? Capricorn. Apparently that’s supposed to mean I’m creative and moody. I’m also a fire snake according to Chinese astrology, an INFJ personality type, and I possibly have some sort of social anxiety disorder. Don’t look at me like that. I take a lot of personality tests online.
Interesting. I might come back to that. What do you do for a living? Right now I’m working for the government. No, there’s nothing hush-hush or exciting about it. Just mountains of paperwork, but it pays the bills. I’ve had a couple of jobs over the years, but my real aim is having my own business. Any spare time I have, which isn’t much these days, is spent focusing my energy on my writing and my part time freelancing.
Nice, now let’s get down to the heart of the matter. This might be a tough question but, why do you write? That’s not difficult at all. I write to keep my sanity. It really is as simple as that. The fact is, I’m not a very emotional person. Or rather, certain circumstances in my life have left me unable to deal with strong emotions on a personal level. Writing is my outlet. It helps keep me away from more destructive behaviors.
About that. You’ve never shied away from the fact that you used to indulge in self-mutilation? Why shy away from it? I had a very difficult childhood, from an emotional point of view, and that’s something I never learnt how to process properly. Since I wasn’t capable of dealing with emotional pain, I channeled it into physical pain instead via cutting. I’m not ashamed of that. I learned how to deal with it, I keep myself busy, and it’s been years since I’ve allowed myself into that place. If my talking about it can help someone else get over the stigma then why not?
I understand. So, how long have you been writing? I started writing poetry when I was about 14 or 15. I dabbled with short stories for a while but didn’t get into writing them seriously until I was in my early twenties.
Which do you prefer? The stories or the poetry? Hmm. You know, they’re almost worlds apart. The short stories I write are a chance to transform into someone else, whether it’s the average person getting lucky in love or a mythical creature. To do it well, I have to put myself into their shoes. The poetry is more, well, me. It’s an outpouring of whatever emotion I’m feeling at that moment.
Now your work is clearly aimed at a primarily lesbian audience. Do you think that you would ever feature characters with different gender or sexual identities? I have no problem whatsoever including characters of any race, color, religion, sexual orientation, or gender identity. To me, people are never more beautiful than when they are allowed to be who they truly are. That being said, I identify as being a gay woman, albeit a somewhat androgynous one. It’s easy for me to write about things I’ve gone through, or to write about characters who may be loosely based on aspects of my personality. Especially in terms of gender identity, I’m not certain I could adequately capture the struggles of someone whose experiences may be vastly different from mine. So, to answer your question, my main romances are likely to remain between gay women but I am very open to a diverse cast of characters.
I’m sure many writers are tired of this question but I have to ask. Where do you get your inspiration? From my life, mostly. Obviously my works are fiction though. I’d hate to have people thinking I’m running around with delusions of being a vampire. I often have to rely on a vivid imagination, but there’s still a tiny grain of reality in there. For example, Feeding Time came about as a result of my frustration with people, and I use the term loosely, who victimize others. Wouldn’t it be fun if these monsters ran into something much worse than themselves? I will admit that there’s a little bit of me in most of my main characters. How much depends on the story-line.
Even in the steamy ones? Steamy ones? I wouldn’t say that I’ve ever written anything overly explicit and…..why are you looking at me like that? I’m a tad bit shy when it comes to some things and I have to say that I’ve always believed a little mystery is much more alluring. Even when I go further, I still stay within my own boundaries, although I am beginning to challenge those a little. I’ve even submitted a few erotica pieces here and there, with varying success.
Erotica? I may faint…oh, I didn’t say anything. Um, are there any writers who have inspired you? Definitely. I admire Caleb Carr’s writing style in The Alienist, and Elizabeth Kostova’s The Historian remains a favorite. I have to say that Radclyffe has been a huge influence. Anyone who can make a scene come alive in front of me has my utmost admiration. In fact, her website was my introduction to lesbian fiction, and I still say that Love’s Melody Lost is a masterpiece.
I love that one too. Are you working on anything right now? I’m always working on something. I have a bunch of story ideas, some for this site and some for various calls for submission. I’ve been dabbling with getting some of my work published and I’ve had a tiny bit of success, so I’m going to keep at it. And I’ve had this idea for a full length novel running around in my head for a while.
Do you have anything going on other than writing? Most definitely. I have a bunch of other domains that I’m slowly but surely developing, across a range of genres. I’m a huge horror fan though so I’m focusing on that niche first.
Alright, we’re almost done (damn it). Last Question. If you had to choose, what would you say are the words you live by? Be true to yourself. Sometimes that’s hard to do but always listen to the little voice in the back of your head that says “This is who I am. I am happy with myself and that’s something worth fighting for”.